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I keep dying and re spawning in the same place? Only every time I re spawn some fucker shoots me before I can even draw a weapon.

I am in a loop it seems, in realty too, history repet.

the Darkness in me remains, it is a great potential to cause harm,

physically, mentally.

I do one thing - fight and then Logic,

then Remain in present situation over and over again

If you want 'real' know this - facing it upfront will destroy you. it will hurt you, and make you feel, again. emotionally beaten to the point of being in non-functioning/non-verbal.

I understand my isolation,

I continue to experience it.

I feel too much,

because I made them laugh, consistently, or because I cried, unexpectedly, how they underestimate me.

I am not a grey blur,

I see The Northern Lights, and the craws. and then you leave me, i am fighting alone, I won't let this go down without a poem.

I was held. And controlled. cruel judgement

then she mind fuck. so I freeze into those truths

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